I cried three times today. Lucky not many people saw.
First, when i reached school early in the morning, i cried while waiting for Jie Xin to arrive.
Second, i cried in class before the class start. ( I was preventing that im sleeping, but acutally im not.)
Third, while trying to tell Si Ting what happen to mii.
U know, till now, i didnt tell any1 my problem, even my cousin and my closest frens.
This show how personal it is.
Same thing repeated again and again.
Chances given to u again and again.
U lie to us again and again.
The same old scene i saw again and again.
I same old thing i dun1 to heard again and again.
The same old distraction again and again.
Told Shun kor (my elderest bro) what happen. After that he some sort give mii counseling.
He said :" Remember, no matter what happen, u jus concentrate on ur studies. Dun care about anything that happen. This type of thing shld be settle by him because his the elderest. And ask mii to study real hard and score good result."
I feel so safe with what he told mii.
I afraid i will disppoint him.
I cant ignore things that happen.
I realli wanted to give up on my studies. Because i force myself to study hard is because of their hope in mii. But, since they doesnt realli care, den i shall ignore too. I mean, let myself relax and anyhow study and anyhow go take 'O'.
Im so stress larx. Was stressing about F&N coursework ytd till midnight, den still muz stress of ur stuff. U all think im machine izzi. Forever that strong and cheerful. WTH!
Tonight still have to continue my F&N. Sianx
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
Yea!!!~ Finally ended my long day of study. Yeepee~
Lucky im wasnt as tired as i thought.
Thanks God that i still manage to catch wad the tcher is teaching.
Wen Jun asked mii whether i wan go with her for Chemistry tuition. Well, quite interested BUT i duno if i got enough cash to afford it. Plus my standard different from her lei. HOW???
Meeting Chu Xian tml. LOL~ Finally arh. Hopefully she is well now.
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO CARMEN TAN XIAO WEI AND MY SHUN KOR KOR!!!~
Lucky im wasnt as tired as i thought.
Thanks God that i still manage to catch wad the tcher is teaching.
Wen Jun asked mii whether i wan go with her for Chemistry tuition. Well, quite interested BUT i duno if i got enough cash to afford it. Plus my standard different from her lei. HOW???
Meeting Chu Xian tml. LOL~ Finally arh. Hopefully she is well now.
HAPPY BIRD DAY TO CARMEN TAN XIAO WEI AND MY SHUN KOR KOR!!!~
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Wad's wrong with the blogger now??? Haiya~
Had PE today, it's Volley Ball. FUN FUN FUN! *HAppy* But gonna hit by the ball two times. One is my face the other is ... Pain sia! I hit the ball till both my hand turns red. The ball is so hard larx.
Im waiting for the day to play Vollley Ball with my SIAO CHAR BO(s) at Sentosa to arrive.
Chemistry study programme realli realli a POWERFUL SLEEPING PILL sia. U know im getting to ANTI- CHEMISTRY. Not tat i wish to BUT i just dun understand and i got no one to turn to. Fren also not good in Chem, den Miss Lim teach i still not realli veri understand. Wad can i do??? Help mii!!! I need tutor on Chemistry. I need motivate on how easy chemistry could be. Anyone???
I just found out that i realli need to rush. Prelims coming. Im feeling Kachiong le. How??? Im scared. Im stressed. HOW??? People help mii! Save mii can u?
I didnt tell my frens how stress i feel because i knw they are stress too. Haix. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!~ =SS
Had PE today, it's Volley Ball. FUN FUN FUN! *HAppy* But gonna hit by the ball two times. One is my face the other is ... Pain sia! I hit the ball till both my hand turns red. The ball is so hard larx.
Im waiting for the day to play Vollley Ball with my SIAO CHAR BO(s) at Sentosa to arrive.
Chemistry study programme realli realli a POWERFUL SLEEPING PILL sia. U know im getting to ANTI- CHEMISTRY. Not tat i wish to BUT i just dun understand and i got no one to turn to. Fren also not good in Chem, den Miss Lim teach i still not realli veri understand. Wad can i do??? Help mii!!! I need tutor on Chemistry. I need motivate on how easy chemistry could be. Anyone???
I just found out that i realli need to rush. Prelims coming. Im feeling Kachiong le. How??? Im scared. Im stressed. HOW??? People help mii! Save mii can u?
I didnt tell my frens how stress i feel because i knw they are stress too. Haix. JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!~ =SS
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Ytd out with my siao char bo(s). Can see that all are not hyper or shld i said all are veri veri quiet. Went to eat subway and chatted about thing like before and after graduation. Chatted about how good or bad our class people is. HEHEHE!
After eating went to Esplanade's library to study. For the few hours i onli studied math. After studied we take a few photos to relax ourself before we went back to Tampines.
Went to trim my hair, it cost mii 28$. After hair cut Si Ting went home first because her bro wan her to go home study. So left mii and Belle, we went to CS and had our lunch + dinner. This the first time both of us went out together. We chatted alot alot and hopefully things are fine now okie. =DD
(picture will be upload tonight if im free.)
After eating went to Esplanade's library to study. For the few hours i onli studied math. After studied we take a few photos to relax ourself before we went back to Tampines.
Went to trim my hair, it cost mii 28$. After hair cut Si Ting went home first because her bro wan her to go home study. So left mii and Belle, we went to CS and had our lunch + dinner. This the first time both of us went out together. We chatted alot alot and hopefully things are fine now okie. =DD
(picture will be upload tonight if im free.)
Friday, July 17, 2009
20 july- Lao ma zi birthday
24 july- Shun kor birthday. Carmen birthday.
Sianx. Duno wad to get for them. $$$ not enough. Cool rite, mum and kor birthday is 4 days different onli.
Shun kor went Malaysia today with her gf family. He will be staying there for 3 days 2 night. I start to miss him le. HAHAHAHA!!! No him at home, no one "quarrel" with mii.
Going out tml with all the siao char bo(sssssssss). HAHAHAHA =XX
24 july- Shun kor birthday. Carmen birthday.
Sianx. Duno wad to get for them. $$$ not enough. Cool rite, mum and kor birthday is 4 days different onli.
Shun kor went Malaysia today with her gf family. He will be staying there for 3 days 2 night. I start to miss him le. HAHAHAHA!!! No him at home, no one "quarrel" with mii.
Going out tml with all the siao char bo(sssssssss). HAHAHAHA =XX
Monday, July 13, 2009
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!~
Chinese O Oral TMORrow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Worst, im the second and im having with 5C.
No friends accompany. =((
Im scared!!!~
I hope i can score.
Tian arh, jiu jiu wo arh.
Good luck YAN QIN. Jia You Yan Qin. All the best Yan Qin.
I praying hard that tml everything will turns out smooth and nice. Please~
Nervous~~~Nervous~~~Nervous~~~Nervous
~~~Nervous~~~Nervous~~~ Nervous~~~Nervous~~~
Chinese O Oral TMORrow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Worst, im the second and im having with 5C.
No friends accompany. =((
Im scared!!!~
I hope i can score.
Tian arh, jiu jiu wo arh.
Good luck YAN QIN. Jia You Yan Qin. All the best Yan Qin.
I praying hard that tml everything will turns out smooth and nice. Please~
Nervous~~~Nervous~~~Nervous~~~Nervous
~~~Nervous~~~Nervous~~~ Nervous~~~Nervous~~~
Friday, July 10, 2009
Firstly, sorry that this post is going to be sad and full of my attitude. If u couldnt accept it please kindly dun read.
Secondly, to Cousins and Chun Sian, please dun tell my family/ brother about anything in this post. It my thing and i dun1 them to know. If u think u will tell den please dun read.
Thanks Chun Sian for giving mii that piece of good new. It may be nth to u all but it realli a good new for mii. Thanks for helping mii to search for the movies. Thanks for telling mii. Thanks for everything. (For bolding this bcoz it's consider the one and onli good thing that happen today)
Today, i felt that my life is so drama. It's the most dramatic moment i ever had. U may not believe, so do i.
Im sorry that i just walk off like that.
Im sorry to be a failure fren.
Im sorry to be a failure classmate.
Im sorry to be a failure person.
Im sorry to do all my best to help u. (i didnt know helping ppl can ended up been...)
Im sorry for who i am.
Im sorry for not letting u win.
Im sorry for my attitude.
Im sorry for how the way i talk.
Im sorry for just been who i am.
Im sorry for my jokes.
Im sorry for my laughter.
Im sorry for what i do.
Im sorry for everything and anything u'll dun like about mii.
IM SORRY! SORRY SORRY SORRY!
Today, i cried under the rain, just like how the tv shown.
Today, i cried at the bus stop and on the bus with some junior looking, just like how the tv shown.
Today, while crying my Itouch played a Friends song that make mii cried more under the rain.
Today, im the onli one crossing the road and there alot of car which make mii stand there alone under the rain crying like some idiot, just like how the tv shown.
Today, i reach home with no one at home and hugging myself and cried alone, just how pathetic i am.
Today, when bathing, i cant stop crying and cant stop blaming myself.
Today, i cried till almost vomit. How silly.
Everything seem to be my fault. I told u tat i dun like people pull my hair before m i rite. I shouted at u, im sorry. But this not mean that i give attitude. Den u give other ppl attitude, it my fault? EVERYONE BLAME MII FOR GIVING U ATTITUDE. U left ur wallet under my table, i didnt give u right away, it my fault. I ask other ppl to keep it, it my fault. SORRY OKIE? If everything change to i pull ur hair or u hide my wallet, i angry, u attitude, HAA ended up will be my fault too huh???
U GUYS KNOW HOW I FEEL WHEN EVERYONE BLAMING MII. I CAN DO NOTHING BUT STILL PRETEND TO PLAY, LAUGH AND SMILE. HOW PATHETIC. IN THE CLASS, I HAVE SO MANI CLOSE FRENS BUT NO ONE! JUS NO ONE UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL.
From today onward, I will try to be quiet. I wont jokes. I wont talk back, i will onli listen. I wont laugh as much as i usually do.
I promise i will just listen to my music quietly like how Kelly did.
BUT PLEASE GIVE MII SOME TIME TO CHANGE. I will change okie?
PS: If there is a shoulder for mii, when im crying so badly under the rain today how good will it be. But i know, it wont happen.
Secondly, to Cousins and Chun Sian, please dun tell my family/ brother about anything in this post. It my thing and i dun1 them to know. If u think u will tell den please dun read.
Thanks Chun Sian for giving mii that piece of good new. It may be nth to u all but it realli a good new for mii. Thanks for helping mii to search for the movies. Thanks for telling mii. Thanks for everything. (For bolding this bcoz it's consider the one and onli good thing that happen today)
Today, i felt that my life is so drama. It's the most dramatic moment i ever had. U may not believe, so do i.
Im sorry that i just walk off like that.
Im sorry to be a failure fren.
Im sorry to be a failure classmate.
Im sorry to be a failure person.
Im sorry to do all my best to help u. (i didnt know helping ppl can ended up been...)
Im sorry for who i am.
Im sorry for not letting u win.
Im sorry for my attitude.
Im sorry for how the way i talk.
Im sorry for just been who i am.
Im sorry for my jokes.
Im sorry for my laughter.
Im sorry for what i do.
Im sorry for everything and anything u'll dun like about mii.
IM SORRY! SORRY SORRY SORRY!
Today, i cried under the rain, just like how the tv shown.
Today, i cried at the bus stop and on the bus with some junior looking, just like how the tv shown.
Today, while crying my Itouch played a Friends song that make mii cried more under the rain.
Today, im the onli one crossing the road and there alot of car which make mii stand there alone under the rain crying like some idiot, just like how the tv shown.
Today, i reach home with no one at home and hugging myself and cried alone, just how pathetic i am.
Today, when bathing, i cant stop crying and cant stop blaming myself.
Today, i cried till almost vomit. How silly.
Everything seem to be my fault. I told u tat i dun like people pull my hair before m i rite. I shouted at u, im sorry. But this not mean that i give attitude. Den u give other ppl attitude, it my fault? EVERYONE BLAME MII FOR GIVING U ATTITUDE. U left ur wallet under my table, i didnt give u right away, it my fault. I ask other ppl to keep it, it my fault. SORRY OKIE? If everything change to i pull ur hair or u hide my wallet, i angry, u attitude, HAA ended up will be my fault too huh???
U GUYS KNOW HOW I FEEL WHEN EVERYONE BLAMING MII. I CAN DO NOTHING BUT STILL PRETEND TO PLAY, LAUGH AND SMILE. HOW PATHETIC. IN THE CLASS, I HAVE SO MANI CLOSE FRENS BUT NO ONE! JUS NO ONE UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL.
From today onward, I will try to be quiet. I wont jokes. I wont talk back, i will onli listen. I wont laugh as much as i usually do.
I promise i will just listen to my music quietly like how Kelly did.
BUT PLEASE GIVE MII SOME TIME TO CHANGE. I will change okie?
PS: If there is a shoulder for mii, when im crying so badly under the rain today how good will it be. But i know, it wont happen.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Yooohooo!!!!~
Im so happy today. HEHEHEHEHE!
We had PE today and we taken our height and weight. HOHOHOHO
I lose 2KG. Yes Yes Yes!
But i grow shorter. From 164-163. Weird.
Oh, btw it time for mii to get a new ear piece. The one im using currently CMI le larx. How sad!
Belle Cheng: GOOD LUCK FOR UR CHINESE O LEVEL ORAL TML. JIA YOU!!!~ TRY NOT TO BE NERVOUS.
Im so happy today. HEHEHEHEHE!
We had PE today and we taken our height and weight. HOHOHOHO
I lose 2KG. Yes Yes Yes!
But i grow shorter. From 164-163. Weird.
Oh, btw it time for mii to get a new ear piece. The one im using currently CMI le larx. How sad!
Belle Cheng: GOOD LUCK FOR UR CHINESE O LEVEL ORAL TML. JIA YOU!!!~ TRY NOT TO BE NERVOUS.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
It's okie for mii to be thinking like tat???
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I-duno-what-i-should-said-here...
To Kelly and Belle:
Cheer up man, u girls are getting more and more emo/sad everyday. No longer that cheerful le arh. Haiyo! Be strong okie! I know it all about the guys but u know we can do whatever or think wadeva we want but we ourselves had to face the fact too. I realise that both u look more and more tired everyday. It seem like u girls doesnt have enough sleep everyday.
Haix, although now i cant realli understand how u'll feel but i still hope u girls can be like the past u. Alway siao siao, laugh laugh, hyper hyper, shout shout and stuff. Remember, no guy still got us, u'll wont be alone okie. Loves!!!
Belle just follow ur heart and dun regret.
Kelly just do your best and ignore how other ppl think of u. As long u know u did the best, no matter wad the outcome is, at least u wont feel regret. JIa YOU!!!~
To Chu Xian:
Duno how have u been but i knw u still unable to realli forget him. Jia You okie! Cheer and remains cheerful. Let bygone be bygone and keep on moving forwards. Study hard and let aim to go poly tgt okie. Heart!!!
To Kelly and Belle:
Cheer up man, u girls are getting more and more emo/sad everyday. No longer that cheerful le arh. Haiyo! Be strong okie! I know it all about the guys but u know we can do whatever or think wadeva we want but we ourselves had to face the fact too. I realise that both u look more and more tired everyday. It seem like u girls doesnt have enough sleep everyday.
Haix, although now i cant realli understand how u'll feel but i still hope u girls can be like the past u. Alway siao siao, laugh laugh, hyper hyper, shout shout and stuff. Remember, no guy still got us, u'll wont be alone okie. Loves!!!
Belle just follow ur heart and dun regret.
Kelly just do your best and ignore how other ppl think of u. As long u know u did the best, no matter wad the outcome is, at least u wont feel regret. JIa YOU!!!~
To Chu Xian:
Duno how have u been but i knw u still unable to realli forget him. Jia You okie! Cheer and remains cheerful. Let bygone be bygone and keep on moving forwards. Study hard and let aim to go poly tgt okie. Heart!!!
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Hey, for those ppl that haven watch 1 litre of tears before, muz find time watch. It damn touching. In my life, i first time was drama till cry like... So touching larx. It teaches mii to cherish ppl around mii and nvr look down on disable ppl. I love this show man.
Sky of love also veri nice to watch. Oh my gosh.
Thanks for introducing mii this drama. =DD
Now, i having headache.
Sky of love also veri nice to watch. Oh my gosh.
Thanks for introducing mii this drama. =DD
Now, i having headache.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
I think i should start my diet again!!!~ =((
No more delicious food.
No more dinner.
Reason for mii to go on diet again is because my bro browse through my Sentosa trip photos and said I LOOK FAT IN THE PHOTO!!!~ =(( He also said because i duno how to post that why i look fat. =((
I remember this Tuesday when we have free period for our F&N, we sat around and start our chit chating. Mii and Mathias was chatting about our Primary school life. For ur information, we both studied in the same Primary school, which is GONGSHANG PRIMARY SCHOOL (rox my life). I made Mathias sang our Primary School song, HAHAHAHA!!!~ Oh, the main point for saying all this is because, I also remember Mathias said im fat in front of Si Ting and Jie Hui. Dumb him!!! He called mii FAT YAN QIN!!!~ WTH... tsk tsk tsk.
Dun care, next week onwards i bring 4$ to school. So tat i wont not have extra $$$ to buy mani mani food and i can start my saving again. *yay* THINK POSTIVE! THINK POSTIVE.
Thursday there's PE, haix, it mean that we will have to take our height and weight. I can face the fact man. I will make sure that no dinner for Wed and no breakfast for Thursday morning.
No more delicious food.
No more dinner.
Reason for mii to go on diet again is because my bro browse through my Sentosa trip photos and said I LOOK FAT IN THE PHOTO!!!~ =(( He also said because i duno how to post that why i look fat. =((
I remember this Tuesday when we have free period for our F&N, we sat around and start our chit chating. Mii and Mathias was chatting about our Primary school life. For ur information, we both studied in the same Primary school, which is GONGSHANG PRIMARY SCHOOL (rox my life). I made Mathias sang our Primary School song, HAHAHAHA!!!~ Oh, the main point for saying all this is because, I also remember Mathias said im fat in front of Si Ting and Jie Hui. Dumb him!!! He called mii FAT YAN QIN!!!~ WTH... tsk tsk tsk.
Dun care, next week onwards i bring 4$ to school. So tat i wont not have extra $$$ to buy mani mani food and i can start my saving again. *yay* THINK POSTIVE! THINK POSTIVE.
Thursday there's PE, haix, it mean that we will have to take our height and weight. I can face the fact man. I will make sure that no dinner for Wed and no breakfast for Thursday morning.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Yoohoo!
After school went Zi en hse and cook for our own lunch. Cheap and healthy. HAHAHAHA!!!~
We planned to cook Spaghetti, mushroom soup and Garlic bread. *yummy yummy*
Im loving it. HAHAHA!!!~ We went to our hse nearby NTUC and get our ingredient. Total price= 12.50$, each 3$ cheap rite and worth it rite. Coz we can cook as many thing as we wan and it healthy. 3$ got so many dishes *WOW~*
The reason for mii to post this photo is because i found this photo on my phone BUT it not taken by mii and i duno it taken by who. I curious about who the itchy hand tat took my milky (ipod touch) photo. HAHAHAHA!!!~ So cute rite the milk *oh my mama*
Throw the spaghetti on the wall, if it stick mean it cooked. Cool rite.
After eating. HOHOHO!!!~
After school went Zi en hse and cook for our own lunch. Cheap and healthy. HAHAHAHA!!!~
We planned to cook Spaghetti, mushroom soup and Garlic bread. *yummy yummy*
Im loving it. HAHAHA!!!~ We went to our hse nearby NTUC and get our ingredient. Total price= 12.50$, each 3$ cheap rite and worth it rite. Coz we can cook as many thing as we wan and it healthy. 3$ got so many dishes *WOW~*
The reason for mii to post this photo is because i found this photo on my phone BUT it not taken by mii and i duno it taken by who. I curious about who the itchy hand tat took my milky (ipod touch) photo. HAHAHAHA!!!~ So cute rite the milk *oh my mama*
Throw the spaghetti on the wall, if it stick mean it cooked. Cool rite.Our yummy homecook lunch. It super duper delicious okie!!!
After eating. HOHOHO!!!~Thursday, July 2, 2009
Okie, i wasnt feeling rite ever still mon onwards. I have been feeling veri giddy everyday, and my hand is feeling kind of weak and cold at almost all time. My mum said because i got anaemia, which i duno true anot. Haix!!!~
It kind of uncomfortable for mii because due to this sickness i couldnt concentrate on my studies and couldnt study at home. I duno wad to do. Mum told mii to drink Ribena or eat something sweet whenever im not feeling well. Haix!!! Im scare sia. Hopefully everything will be fine soon. *praying veri hard*
Why is wisdom tooth called wisdom tooth??? The name for wisdom tooth sound so nice... but having a wisdom tooth is so scary. It should change it name and called surgery tooth ba. Alright, i will stop nagging on my wisdom tooth already.
It kind of uncomfortable for mii because due to this sickness i couldnt concentrate on my studies and couldnt study at home. I duno wad to do. Mum told mii to drink Ribena or eat something sweet whenever im not feeling well. Haix!!! Im scare sia. Hopefully everything will be fine soon. *praying veri hard*
Why is wisdom tooth called wisdom tooth??? The name for wisdom tooth sound so nice... but having a wisdom tooth is so scary. It should change it name and called surgery tooth ba. Alright, i will stop nagging on my wisdom tooth already.
